reopening of skool last wednesday has been demoralising.
wednesday:
ferst stop was miss regina class.get back our test marks. as expected on that unlucky day where i cockup big timee. computerhang at the very end of my work without me stoopidly happy2 confident nvr save it every 10 minutes haish. regret like FUCK. well it's a big fat ZERO. never!!ever!! in my entire life in skool i got a zero. record breaking No.One record breaking No.Two got bck all my CT papers. all fail ALLLLLLL FIVE MDOULE!!! and the best part RETEST ALL NXT WEEK... i;m stressing like fuck ryte as i'm typing ryte nw. i blog because i wanna let go all the stress at my head to HERE!! come on asyraf!!release the stresss!!! . been studying late. starts at 12am all the way till 3am on weekdays. and on weekends 12am all the way till subuh!! too bad i can onli study at nytee... bad habbit!!
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!terdelete lakk. fuckshit#$#%$%#@#%$@%... what the FUCKKK!!! damn it cant UNDO..
ahh!!! no mood to type bckk... just wanna curse the old asyraf bck in 2006.. you stooopid fuckhead shit %#%#!%#%#$@#$!.. y dun u trust ur HEAD!!!UR BRAIN MORE than your HEART!!! fffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkeeeeeerrrrrrrr!! at least if sabo ppl nvm.this one sabo urselff stoopid shit fuckkk!!piece of shit... deserve to die and rott...
i'm totally upset with myself this very moment... the more i think of it.. the more i wish i can turn bck timee.. why asraf why!!!!why can't u get it ryte at the FERST TIME... why must u learn frm mistakes..!!! why the fuck.. what the fuck is the matter with you.. i shud haf trust my HEAD more than my HEART.. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!GOD!!!!!!!!!WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!! and now u stressing ur selff... arghh!!!
why cant u be the asyraf bck in lower sec. good in results. a councillor.nearly assistant head councillor [but stoopidd!! i resign] top in MATHEMATICS. you even beat one top maths NASSIAN STUDENT when mdm norlaila sent you for the eastcluster maths competition.. didn't it felt great!!! beating someone at ngeeann at their HOME ground to claim 1st place!!! still remember the question:
29 x 5050890 dividedby 505089 + 1 = ??? 5 seconds starts for nw. 1...2...3... asyraf: *smiling* [written asnwer: 291] dun knw y i keep smiling.she looks gorgeous when she's stressup. :x
and she was sweating like fuckk if i;m nt mistaken... mcm baru abis lari 1.6km. lol. it's even the bus number if im nt mistaken to ngeeann.bus 291 hahaha cant blame her!!her cher was a fucker.stress her up!!and mdm norlaila wasn't with mee. i like being solo!! she knws me.she trust mee. so there she was helping herself with all the buffetss.talking2.
force to shake hand with the girl. haha she hates me to the core that time when i beat her. upset+angry+frustrated+gonna blow anytime haha to think abt it nw i remember. even go owt with a date with herr once. dos where the timess.."cinta2 monyets"..
if only this ALL is just a dream. being here in year 2007. if onli i can go bck to my sec 5 days.. where we all RULE the skool.. pioneer studentss.. having all the best!! things.best treatments.freedom... doing stoopid things with teacher closing one eye. those were the dayss.the days where i got GREAT FRIENDS!!GREAT TEACHERS!!GREAT MEMORIES!! i shud haf treasure it MORE!! and be a better STUDENT!! and now look.left with onli 1 year ++ in skool. then bye2! 20 years of skool. TWENTY!!! time fly very fast!! and i cant afford to loose anymore timee.. ryte nw must make full use of my 1 year plus to the FULLEST!!GREATEST!!
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