CONFUSION!!CONFUSION!!CONFUSION!! !!?!!WHY!!?!! for the last 2 hours i've been seating here.at my study table.strumming the guitar with nonsense tunes till my mom get fed-up.and now staring infront of my labtop doing nothing but clicking.deleting useless stuff inside my computers.songs.past year notes. !!!DAMN IT DOS ARMY LETTERS!!! their "bond" offers felt so tempting. too tempting to reject. my mind haf been thinking&thinking&thinking for the past 2 hrs. and till now i haven make a decision yet and now the form is here.right beside me.all i haf to do is: just go to my front door. go down the stairs. walked a few meters. and drop it at the mailbox. and regret it in 5 to 7 years time. ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!! well for dos who don't know what is a "bond". let me xplain it to YOU. yes !!YOU!! [for dos who knows and thing it is a waste of time to read it,plz move ur bloody cursor of urs to ur right-top corner of ur monitor and press the shape "x".] * first thing first. a "bond" is a scheme. let say an organisation.a good example. "Republic Singapore Air-Force"[RSAF] wants young new diploma graduates to work with them. why? cause it's cheap.graduates always starts with a low salary. AND u have to work with them for like 5 years plus.[the minimum]. thats the part u loose out. the GOOD part is.[which it TOO GOOD to hear] is: when u studying here in the poly, the RSAF will pay u $1K PER MONTH. imgine that. $1K every month during that point of ur teenage age. to any teenager with that kind of $$ every month, it's "HEAVEN". and when u pass.u just haf to pass all ur module. they gave u a bonus of $1.2 k. thats $2.2k in one of the month. somemore during ur skool holidays month. if u do the math, in the 3 years of ur poly the RSAF will pay YOU $43.5K[to be xact] ARGHHHH the K's. * in my mind right as im typing now i've already plan everything i'm doing with my K's. pay my mum my skool fees she been paying all dis years. poly skool fees are $2K+/- per semester[for ur info]. byebye $16K. so left with $27.5K all by myself. get myself my moto-license. a new WHEELS. fuyyy maybe a COOL AND CHILL VESPA OR OFFROAD WR SCRAMBLER. arghhhhh!! the wheels. by then at the end of my ns, i think i'll be left with $15K. think asyraf think!! !!isit worth it!! !!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! and when i start seving my bond, i will earn $2.2K for my monthly salary. feels worth it right? $2.2 for an engineering diploma is still in a "safe" range. the big problem is right now ur pay will NEVER go up. and the big confusion ryte nw i hear that info from other "people's mouth". all my friends are against this bond thing. say they trick you and all. and because of that, i'm LOST. the damn fucking bond offers is TOO GOOD. like one of the RSAF ppl said during the talk,
"the money is just right there!!all u need to do is jz signed up.it will be a wasted find ur self working/sign-on with the army in like 4 years time with no $$ while ur friend taking the bond have $44K at his pocket.laughing his ass off at YOU"
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH "!!!BTOL JGAK!!!" everything sounds GOOD. dos monthly allowances.the bond-serving period. but one thing.i think two things that i not sure. i really not sure wheather that the army job really suits my interest!! it's a JOB.it's suppose to be something i like to do till i retire. and one thing for sure, i don't want to go jobhoppping during my 20's. NONONO way. 20's is the most important stage for most of ppl lifes. this is the stage where u have get a STABLE JOB not to just support urself but others like ur beloved parents.for me my adek[the youngest].my adek pompan future is bright for sure.she's going to be an independent women for sure. den came the having ur own family. !!!marriage!!! !!fullstop!! back to the point. but i still wants to work at "SIA" that has been my dream ever since i start poly. damned if only SIA got give BONDS. i'm sure to work my ass off getting it!!
the second thing is my "MUM". i thought having making my own decision is going to be easy. no more pakse.no more minta permission from my parents about "life stuff" !!damned it she's right!!! it's still HARD to decide. haish!!guess i've to be strong/confident to any decision i going to make. but first need to do some reasech about it. anyone out there with comments!!!!??!!! please!!tag!!please. any comments. if u think u disagree u tag.if u thinks it's worth it,"TELL ME". anything taggers. thanks in advance. * anyway went out with lyna,nisa,mil and rasul ysterday. go shopping with lyna at tm.find pressents for the birthday gerl. !!!!!!!!!HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAT ANISSA GATES!!!!!!! end this post with the potrait of the two princesses.
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